Sunday, February 27, 2011

Back to work

My maternity leave is up and I go back to work tomorrow.

Have I gotten weepy over this? Yes.

Have I fretted about the time spent away from my girls? Yes.

Am I looking forward to going back to work? Absolutely.

It is bittersweet but I admit to being excited. I have enjoyed my down time, if you call wrangling a newborn and a sassy toddler down time, but I am ready for the bustle of the newsroom again. I have watched the local news and read the paper every day, wanting to be part of it again. I grilled my husband every time he came home from where we work together, asking him for the latest news and gossip.

Like Hillary said this time last year when she went back to work, I am looking forward to not having a little one touching me for part of the day. I am looking forward to more grown up conversations.

I am also looking forward to making the most of my mornings with the girls before I go to work and coming home at night and seeing them sleeping peacefully. I am looking forward to weekends spent as a family of four.

It is not going to be easy with our schedules. I will parent alone until I drop them off at the sitter's around 11 a.m. and the husband will be on his own in the evenings. It is will take planning and preparation, neither for which I am known. But we will do it together.

I know some mothers lament going back to work. While I will certainly miss my girls, it is time for me to be part of the work force again. I do not have the temperament of a stay at home mom.

These past nine weeks have gone by quickly. Gizmo doesn't seem like a newborn anymore. She seems like a sturdy baby who is rocketing her way through her first year of life. She rolled over from her stomach to her back at six weeks. She is generous with her big, open mouth gummy smiles and has full cooing conversations with anyone who will listen.

She gained two pounds in her first month. We will find out Thursday at her check up if that trend continues.

I have no doubt there will be tears as I leave them tomorrow and I will probably make a few calls to check on them. But I will also walk back into the office with a smile on my face.

How did you feel when your maternity leave was over?


d e v a n said...

Good luck tomorrow!I hope your first day back is a great one!

Lisa said...

I can totally relate to your feelings! I, too, think I would be better off working full time, but I only work part time. (And with baby #2 due in less than 2 months, it's not time to ramp up the business, ha!) I'm sure being a full-time working mom is hard a hell, but sometimes I'm envious of you girls! I suppose my time for going back to work full time will come soon enough...if I stay sane in the meantime, LOL. (Was that enough "times" in one sentence?)

Sarah said...

Exactly the same way!! I did cry (OK, sob hysterically) in the bathroom the night before I went back to work, but once I was there I was much happier. I still text Little Man's day care teacher during the day to check on him. Good luck going back to work. I'm sure it will be great for all of you.

k said...

I felt ecstatic.

I hope today, your first day back, is a marvelous one.

~she~ said...

I'm still on maternity leave and have been for the past 11 years. Sorry, can't share the sentiment.

Mimsie said...

Love everything about being a SAHM. Wouldn't miss those sticky hugs and first steps for the biggest paycheck in the world. And I'm thankful my own mom stayed home with us kids too--she is my role model.

Erica said...

I felt the same as you did. I remember being glad I could go to the bathroom at any time I wanted! I love my daughter so much but I also love having time to myself. It's sad that work counts as my "me time" but eh.

Two Braids said...

I'm not even on leave yet and still will be pregnant for a few days (weeks?) and already lamenting coming back to work in June! Sometimes I wish I could fully embrace the work at home mom thing but I think underneath it all I'm destined to be a stay at home soccer mom. I admire your go get 'em attitude and knowing this is right for you! Hope the day was great.