I feel worn out. Gizmo is still very inconsistent with sleeping through the night. Some nights she does, some nights she doesn't and there is no way of predicting what she will do.
We've been on the road a lot lately during the weekend, which means things aren't getting done at my house like the laundry, the grocery shopping, the cleaning, the organizing for my first ever garage sale. As much as I hate to do all of these things, it stresses me out not to have them done.
My time with the girls in the mornings feels like a blur of breakfast, short playtime and then getting everyone ready to get out the door. They are both asleep by the time I get home.
My time with the husband comes in short sit downs after work when we both tiredly rehash the day and crash into bed before the baby can wake up.
My time with me comes before I pass out in bed reading a book or getting a quick 20 minutes on the elliptical after work.
I don't remember when I last spent time with friends when it didn't involve a children's birthday party or a playdate.
None of it feels sufficient. I feel like I am short-changing everyone.
I'm in a rut and feeling disappointed by what I am not accomplishing.
And I feel guilty about being cranky because nothing is really wrong. I have a wonderful husband, healthy children, a good job. I really have no reason to be cranky and yet I am.
I'm taking tomorrow off since I had to work the holiday. The girls and I are going to hang out with not much more than bowling class planned. I'm hoping a day with them turns me around.
What helps you change your cranky pants?