I've been stressed. I've been tired and annoyed and frustrated.
Sickness. Life decisions. Working. Raising kids. All of it has contributed to my bad mood the past few weeks.
But this week seems to want to cure me. Or maybe I'm just tired of myself and have decided to be happy and stop worrying so much.
A friend posted this link to a blog entry titled "I don't want to raise a good kid." Basically this mother stressed when her toddler daughter wasn't the little angel like every other kid she knew. But then that toddler who pushed the limits and wasn't normal grew up to be an extraordinary teen who continued to push the limits and do her own thing but in amazing, transforming ways. It spoke to me with my recent battles with Peanut.
I don't want my kid to be a jerk (she's not and I won't let her be). But perhaps I should appreciate her more for who she is. Independent. Strong willed. Loving and sweet. She still has to be respectful but I can let her be independent too.
It was an a-ha moment for me.
A couple hours later, I got home, went to our mailbox and found a package from Hillary. She had a perfectly timed phone call last week and let me unload my stresses. It was at a time that neither one of us would normally be able to talk but just when I needed my best friend most, she was there.
After our chat, I started to feel better. Then I opened the package today and found this T-shirt. We've been passing it back and forth since college. We send it to each other when we think the other one needs it. Weddings. Moves. Pregnancies. I think I last gave it to her at The Blathering mainly because I had it for awhile and they had just gotten Brucie. Along with it, she sent an early birthday present - a journal so I could keep track of all my "young adult dystopian" that Hillary likes to mock me for liking so much.
And then the icing on the cake: I found this song today and had a family dance party in the kitchen after dinner. Nothing is better at chasing the crankiness away than a great song and dancing as a family.
Life isn't always sunshine and lollipops. But it's good to have moments that help you find the happiness.