Thursday, April 12, 2012

And we're good

The first time I decided to try to get pregnant, Hillary was six months along and another friend called to tell me she was pregnant. I remember getting off the phone with her, looking at the husband and saying, "I'm ready to have a baby."

Something clicked inside of me. If they were grown-up enough to do it, I was too (I was 27 at the time, which seems silly now that I wasn't quite sure if I was grown-up enough for a baby then. Also, I always joke that my friend's daughter is the reason Peanut is alive.)

Five weeks later, a test at 3 a.m. on the husband's birthday confirmed our life was about to change.

Right before Peanut turned a year old, I had baby fever. My sister gave birth to her second child. Hillary was pregnant again. It was hard for me to wait to have another baby but circumstances weren't right for us. Less than a year later, I was pregnant with Gizmo.

As I've mentioned before, I opted to have my tubes tied when Gizmo was born. The doctor and nurses asked me many, many, many, many times if I was sure, reminding me many, many, many, many times that this was permanent. There is even video of the doctor asking me after Gizmo was delivered, "Are you sure you don't want to try for another?"

My response, "Good Lord, no."

There has only been one time that I questioned that decision and I blame hormones. Days after Gizmo was born, my dad said something about how she was their last grandchild. Something about it struck me as ridiculously sad I couldn't stop crying.

Now? My brother-in-law and sister-in-law announced they are expecting their first child at the end of the year. That first friend (the one whose daughter sparked my need to get pregnant) is pregnant with her third child and another friend is pregnant with her second.

My only thought is this: How wonderful for them. We're good.


6 comments:

Jessica said...

That's wonderful. I really hope I feel like that someday!

Mrs. Irritation said...

I think that's a gift - to just know. We're good with one and it's a relief not to have to constantly wonder "are we done?" Our family is complete as is.

Erica said...

It is so awesome that you know for sure. Ah! I have deliberated a lot on one or two but I think we're going forward. I wish I was 27 when I got pregnant at first but at that point I wasn't even married. Bummer!

Unknown said...

I hope I feel that way one day. I feel like we're not complete right now. I guess I haver baby fever. That's a choice I'm leaving up to my husband at the moment, because me being ready doesn't mean he's ready and we should both be welcoming that joy together.

k said...

We are so very done and while I knew 100% probably over a year ago, it has taken T longer.

Sara said...

I'm waiting for the moment when I know that we're done. Three was always my magic number but now that we're at two I wonder if this is it for us. You ask Tim and you'll hear a resounding YES but I waffle back and forth.

Generally speaking, I have HEARD it's not the BEST idea to add more kids when one party doesn't want them. So there's that :)